After seeing what Martin went through with the Lonely, what I've been through, lonely is really the last thing I want you to be, Morrigan. Even just a little.
God this feels so complicated. There are things I feel more comfortable about with you than Martin and I don't know what that means. Maybe because you're not from our world? There's not that history?
Like the damn cat thing. I know he'd indulge me, but it felt easy telling you I'd play with you that way. I guess because you work at the Naughty Persian?
And I think I liked what happened during the ritual.
[And he keeps typing again, his embarrassment growing as he tries to stop and can't.]
It's not something I'd want to do daily, or anything. But I liked... I think I liked making you happy the most? It felt good to be able to just make someone else feel good. And I don't know what really happened, but everything sort of narrowed down to you. Everything inside my head got quieter. All the fear from everyone around, all the horror in their lives. It wasn't gone, but with you like that, it was just quieter for a little while. It was... nice. And I was curious about all your reactions and what would happen next. The only other person that's really happened with is Martin. I thought he'd be the only one I'd want to try things with when it wasn't being forced on us. But I think if you wanted it and Martin was okay with it, I'd want that. Maybe to count as part of my quota, too.
Or we could just spend time together, too. I like talking to you.
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Date: 2020-06-05 02:12 pm (UTC)Even just a little.
God this feels so complicated.
There are things I feel more comfortable about with you than Martin and I don't know what that means.
Maybe because you're not from our world?
There's not that history?
Like the damn cat thing.
I know he'd indulge me, but it felt easy telling you I'd play with you that way.
I guess because you work at the Naughty Persian?
And I think I liked what happened during the ritual.
[And he keeps typing again, his embarrassment growing as he tries to stop and can't.]
It's not something I'd want to do daily, or anything.
But I liked...
I think I liked making you happy the most?
It felt good to be able to just make someone else feel good.
And I don't know what really happened, but everything sort of narrowed down to you.
Everything inside my head got quieter.
All the fear from everyone around, all the horror in their lives.
It wasn't gone, but with you like that, it was just quieter for a little while.
It was... nice.
And I was curious about all your reactions and what would happen next.
The only other person that's really happened with is Martin.
I thought he'd be the only one I'd want to try things with when it wasn't being forced on us.
But I think if you wanted it and Martin was okay with it, I'd want that.
Maybe to count as part of my quota, too.
Or we could just spend time together, too.
I like talking to you.